Jul 25th, 2008
The World doesn’t stop because I’ve had a baby!
Nope.
It doesn’t.
But I sure wish it would. I wish that everything and everyone would just slow down.
That no one had errands, or illness, or work.
I wish the summer would stop flying by. Then I wouldn’t have to miss this rare, gorgeous Washington weather.
I don’t want my kids to miss out on all the things we “could” be doing.
But they are.
They are because even though mentally I’m ready to take on the world, with four children in tow, my body wants to stay put in the horizontal position.
When I was pregnant, my mind was mushy, and I couldn’t even wrap my brain around going out with the three kids. Now the clouds have cleared and I feel so able. I don’t feel scared like I did when I had my third baby. I remember feeling secretly scared for that day my husband left and went back to work. I kept waiting for that feeling to come around this time. I really don’t feel apprehensive at all. But my body is not quite there…every day I feel a little stronger.
I thought I could go to book club last night. The clock struck 8pm. I couldn’t will my body out of bed. Although the new babe which I have for blogging purposes deemed “Annie” stayed up until 1 am.
I’m almost ready to take on the world, but can’t it slow down just a tad for me?
My kids and I would be ever so grateful.
Good Enough
I love that you feel as if you could take on the world (even if mentally) because dang it, YOU CAN!
I am struggling a little with the same feelings, especially the fact that the weather is FINALLY decent, yet we can’t enjoy it because I am not up to taking everyone out.
Your kids will never feel like they missed out on stuff. And if you feel like you are missing out, that will pass too. I “missed out” on a lot of stuff the summer I was on bedrest with Sugar. But looking back and moving forward– whoopedy doo.
It’ll be fine.
Congrats on baby 4.
This time will pass quickly as we constantly hear. I’m proud of you for accomplishing what you have and doing it with patience. I need more.
That’s funny, I felt the same about #3 and #4 as you. With #3, I wanted to never leave my house, then #4, I felt more “able” than ever. (Although it took a while)
Just remember that, you are giving them a sister that will be around for their entire lives and beyond - to share kisses & tears, and make forts with. There will be many more summers, just enjoy being together and snuggling under the covers! Love you!!
Four! You had #4?! I’m the last to know.
Congratulations.
Give yourself time.
You’ll soon figure out how to do life with four.
A summer on the couch surrounded by my four favorite people sounds like heaven.
I felt the same way. Having four kids in 5.5 years was TOUGH. The baby is now almost three (I can’t believe that!!!) and life is so much easier in so many ways. But also harder in other ways.
Overall? I’d say it gets better.